Upside Down Logic

I love respect. Always have. Always will. Seeing it in action is one of my favorite things. Although last week as I talked to Caleb I decided I was a bit of a hypocrite. Is there such a thing as a "small" hyporite?

Caleb was telling me he would likely be attached to a Platoon coming back to Germany from Iraq in Feb. Meaning he would be in Germany his entire time with little chance of being deployed. Sounded good to me. Right up until he said, "But I might volunteer to go if they need my MOS." What?! I kindly (cause mommas know best right?) explained that there was no reason to do that, if they needed him they would tell him. He replied again, "Mom, I'm not going to hide until my time is out!" I explained hiding was fine with mom. And then in my (okay Amanda get a grip) moment he told me, "Mom, I signed up to fight and I will do that if they need me. It's the right thing to do." Good grief, how do I argue with that kind of respect? So I simply said (to me and him), "well, let's just take it one day at a time." He agreed and I did not have a stroke:)

As I have studied this week for my Bible class (on hypocrisy) I realized I maybe behaved hypocritically when questioning Caleb. I am extremely proud of his example. I am so very proud of his attitude. I am proud of the man he is and all that he values so strongly. I agree with him. I agree with his values. I worked so very hard to help his father instill those values and now? Now I am trying to undermine those very values with my doubt.

The same is true of us as Christians. We know the right things to do, we know what is good and fair and kind. We understand the sacrifice, yet at the first sign of distress we head for the hills. Hide.

As I prayed this week for my son I also prayed for myself, prayed that my strength and my walk would always reflect my faith. Hope that upside down "run for the hills" logic of the world remains right side up for me!