Here and Today

“The size of your success is measured by the strength of your desire; the size of your dream; and how you handle disappointment along the way.”
(Robert Kiyosaki)

I am not sure that Robert Kiyosaki is even a Christian, but whether he is or not? He has the principles all down pat. I was reminded of these verses...

Then you will have success if you are careful to observe the decrees and laws that the LORD gave Moses for Israel. Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or discouraged.
1 Chronicles 22:13

"LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup; you have made my lot secure. The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places; surely I have a delightful inheritance. I will praise the LORD, who counsels me; even at night my heart instructs me. I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken."
Psalm 16:5-8

"Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses. In the sight of God, who gives life to everything, and of Christ Jesus, who while testifying before Pontius Pilate made the good confession, I charge you to keep this command without spot or blame until the appearing of our Lord Jesus Christ, which God will bring about in his own time--God, the blessed and only Ruler, the King of kings and Lord of lords, who alone is immortal and who lives in unapproachable light, whom no one has seen or can see. To him be honor and might forever. Amen."
1 Timothy 6:12-16

We are promised time and time again that our dream, our hope of heaven is firm. We will have disappointment, we will have struggles....but in all things we will have God with us. I cannot think of a way to measure that kind of "strength of desire". I feel nearly invincible. That is when I keep my head where it needs to be!

I have spent way to much time, by necessity dealing with Sam issues. TN-Care gave RTC one more week. So we move into another 7 days of scrambling. Although in truth it is about over...one way or another. I am a BIG perspective believer, I know that all these things, all these worries will come to pass. I am in normal situations able to place everything in it's pocket. But with the constant wave crashing concerns of Sam it is really hard. I KNOW it could be worst. I do. I laugh as I am reminded of my friend Carol saying about our yucky work one time....someone said, "You could be in African in a hut trying to do this" to which she replied, "But I am NOT in Africa!" Sometimes we have to drop all that "it could be" stuff and just deal with our here and today. I'm at that point....I can only deal with the here and today.

Sam was placed in a hold yesterday, the worker called to tell me. Why? He was mad (lol..duh!). He is upset that he cannot go back to Potters. The worker explained to Sam that the couple who had kept him before were not there and it was not his "fault" he couldn't go back. She told him they did not have house parents. I wanted to correct her as she talked, but I didn't. Yesterday in private I explained that Sam needed to know that while he had nothing (well maybe nothing, who knows?) to do with the couple leaving, he could not return because of his OWN behaviors. He used words, words that burned any future opportunity and words that cannot be taken back. He has to be held accountable for those words. In the future, he HAS TO KNOW that his words WILL impact his future. Plain and simple. The worker acknowledged that Sam did have control over his words, if not always his anger, and understood my concerns. Now, whether or not it's addressed? I don't know. Ownership is so incredible. Fault laying, especially in someone else's yard over OUR choices is not acceptable to me. I find that in the midst of HUGE issues that little one really aggravated me. Truth, Ownership, and Respect are just cornerstones of my values. I might fuss over them:)

I feel a bit bad for not blogging very much of late. If you knew how many "letters" I composed each day in regard to this situation, how many phone conversations I have had, and how many times I have had to repeat it all to Scott? You would realize my brain is very frazzled....haha...well, it probably was a little before too:)