Impending help!

It appears ....it seems....it is REALLY looking like we have found temporary help for Sam. It could come as soon as tomorrow.

We thought we found a wonderful group setting that sounded like Sam's kind of place....lots of outside work and learning a trade....structure and quiet. Sam's teacher at Alternative school called last week talking about the hard time Sam had with any change. It was not surprising news. Sam needs serious structure. They were totally willing to take him except for his meds. This place only did natural remedies. Scott meet Tuesday with Dr Goldin, our pediatric psychiatrist, and asked if there were holistic equals to Sam's meds. Two he could find alternative for but in the words of Dr. Goldin, "It would be a tragedy!" to go without the other two. Not feeling like a tragedy we marked that neat sounding place off our list.

Today, or maybe tomorrow, Sam is headed to Compass in Memphis. He was there in 2009 and they remember Sam, know him. I would like to say that is a very positive thing, but I am not so sure. I am sure they will help. I love helpers. I sure hope that "knowing" will give them all a jump start on the helping part!

I spent $220 dollars this morning meeting the criteria of the clothing list. Sam has not been running around necked, but he did not have some of the things. We don't have 7 pairs of pajamas, or a jogging suit, or the number of underclothes(socks, undies or T's) they ask for. Sam has been growing! Up a whole size in shirts and pants since November. I have not bought lots of new clothes. He is currently wearing Khaki's and collared shirts to school everyday. With that uniform being worn we did not need lots of casual. Sam wants to wash clothes every single day (seriously) so I have not added more than we needed. Now Sam can go two weeks without washing!

We won't tell Sam about the RTC until it is time to go. Scott and I are both in agreement that in his current state of mind (which is not very stable) he might do harm to himself. So, I am packing for Sam and then putting it away while everyone is at school.

It is so tough to weigh the losses for Sam. He needs to be home, because he is a boy. We know Sam has made so many improvements. We would never want to turn back the pages because today is better than yesterday. Yet, we know, if Sam cannot learn to control his emotions? He will never be allowed to live in a home. We use every single resource we can find to do all we can do for Sam. Scott and I know our time is limited, Sam is growing up fast. As with ALL our children, we want success for this son. We are praying this might bring that to Sam.